This is a tale of three papers so foul and fetid and tainted.
These papers are legal papers, they are public papers, they are supposedly paperworks that democracy demands to be fair and impartial, honest and true.
BUT THESE PAPERS DISGUST ME!
They are wretched and are manipulated to vile ends….
These papers I WILL DISSECT ONE BY ONE… I will show you their flaws and in so doing, open up can upon can of maggots.
First there is the tale of the DEATH CERTIFICATE.
It is issued to the family or next of kin of the deceased, this is a Filipino citizens final paper. It states the most basic information: Name, Age, Sex, Religion, Place of Death and cause of demise.
It must be done conscientiously. It must be prepared with respect. It is after all, the last proof that an existence came to be, the validation of a person’s life.
It does not need to state how many friends the owner had, nor how he or she lived. It is not written here what principles he or she believes in, nor values, nor prejudices, nor weaknesses, nor strengths, nor what people thought of them- nor how much they cared, nor how sorrowful and anguished they are in his or her passing.
It is just that. A piece of paper. The final evidence of a life breathed and walked and loved and cared and upheld by someone.
Therefore it must be done conscientiously. It must be prepared with respect.
Hereunder is my sisters’s death certificate:
At the front page, her name was stated as JOAN MCDANIEL ANOS.
The middle name is wrong. It is only Daniel, not Mc Daniel.
Actually it was Mc Daniel. It was the last name of my grandmother’s last “lover” from a string of many when she worked in Olongapo. He was of Scottish descent, an American serviceman. My grandmother, not really knowing well that “lover” who she only lived with for a short period of time, decided to just follow his last name anyway, and named my mother Annabelle Mc Daniel.
For some reason or another, we, my mother’s children just used DANIEL.
My mother met my father, a pure Samar bred and born seafarer. He hailed from Bacayawan, a small barrio near Llorente, Eastern Samar. I've not yet been to the place but they say almost everyone in that barrio is my relative.
My grandmother herself was also half American. Her father was also an serviceman who lived with a Zamboangan in a military in Cavite city. Her name was Florence Vergara Riddle.
Before the Japs initial victory on Philippine soil became inevitable, her father (my great grandfather) said they have to go to the US. He left a few years before Mc Arthur’s retreat, bringing along the rest of my grandmother’s sibling with him. He can’t bring his dark complexioned but beautiful “native” lover with her, the USAFFE won’t allow it. The American military brass wasn’t so keen either on their soldiers “frolicking” with natives. Having children with them either. My great grandpa had 7 with my great grandmother. My mother was eldest at 18 when he left.
My grandmother, that indomitable and loyal woman, wouldn’t leave my great grandma, Elena Vergara. So she stayed with her. Took care of her.
(Mamang carrying my sister, that's me farthest to the left)
She and my great grandma went then to Olongapo. There is no more livelihood in Cavite, the economy is in tatters.
The Japanese came and wreaked havoc.
Douglas the war hero left.
They did not hear of my grandfather anymore.
Douglas Mc Arthur returned but my great grandfather still did not.
So my grandma used her body so that they might live.
She had 7 children, all from different fathers. The last of which was my grandpa. A certain Mc Daniel, of Scottish origin, but American in citizenship.
So to whoever prepared this paper, I would like you to know that my sister’s middle name was really Mc Daniel. But legally, it is Daniel. Her middle name has a story. I wrote it so you might know.
But I would like you to know you are also incompetent. Why weren’t you conscientious? Why didn’t you check? You had the birth certificate for that. Is that part of your GRAND COVER UP?
Let’s look at the PLACE OF DEATH now.
My sister died within the premises of NEWMAN HOME CARE AND REHABILITATION CENTER.
WHERE THE FUCK did you get the name HUMAN CARE HOME?
Ok it is understandable that the syntax and construct of the real name of the place may have placed difficulties on your English unfamiliar brain.
But there is such a thing as asking someone to spell it for you.
Or have it written so you can copy VERBATIM!!!
You were the first in the place also.
The next point is my half-brother’s name.
When you asked him to sign above the INFORMANT’S, he said your conversation went like this:
Funeral home rep: Ano relasyon mo sa namatay? (What is your relation to the deceased?)
Mark Paul: Kapatid po. (Brother Sir)
Funeral home rep: Pirma dito (sign here)
My brother looks at it then tells THE POLICEMAN.
Mark Paul: Sir di po eto ang apelyido ko (Sir this is not my last name)
Funeral home rep: Ha? Di ba kamo kapatid ka? (Huh? Didn’t you said you were the brother?)
Mark Paul: Oo nga po pero di ko po ito apelyido ko Aporongao po (Yes sir but my last name is different, it’s Aporongao)
Funeral home rep: Ha di hindi ka kapatid? (Huh, so you’re not the brother?)
By this time my brother was really embarrassed, but there’s one thing I admire him for: He is brutally honest, blunt even.
Pong: Sir kapatid lang PO AKO SA LABAS (No sir I am only a brother out of infidelity)
Funeral home rep: Di hindi ka nga kapatid (So you’re not the brother)
By this time, my exasperated brother just signed the paper, deep inside embarrassed and confused and heartbroken.
PATAY NA NGA ANG KAPATID KO GINAGAGO PA. (My sister is already dead and she’s still being subjected to so much BULLSHIT). That’s how he must have felt.DI NYO BA ALAM ANG TERMINONG HALF-BROTHER? O HALF SISTER? MGA KAPATID LANG SA AMA O INA PERO KAPATID PA RIN? (DON’T YOU KNOW THE TERM HALF-BROTHER OR HALF-SISTER? SIBLINGS FROM ONLY ONE PARENT BUT SIBLING NONETHELESS?)
I repeat, the Death certificate is the last evidence a person lived and died. It must be prepared conscientiously, it must be treated with respect. The person deserves that at least.
Now lets take a good look at the back of the certificate.
In the postmortem certificate, PCI MAMERTO BERNABE JR MD CSEE certified that he performed the autopsy. He further stipulated that the cause of death was
ASPHYXIA BY LIGATURE.
In layman language: Death by HANGING…
MAMERTO BERNABE. YOU WAIT. YOU READ ON. YOU WILL PAY.
Then there is the tale of the first police report in a series of what I promise to be long line in coming.
It is called INITIAL INVESTIGATION REPORT.
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It is with regards to a Death of a female person by hanging.
That person is my sister.
It supposedly contains the most basic “initial” information of the incident.
The WHAT, WHO, WHEN AND WHERE.
It is conducted by the SOCO. It is supposed to be impartial and fair. It is supposed to be unblemished and conducted by professionals.
DAPAT ITONG GINAGAWA NG MGA WALANG KINIKILINGAN (IT SHOULD BE CONDUCTED BY THOSE WHO HAVE NO HIDDEN MOTIVES)
But I beg to differ.
Where the HELL did you get the date APRIL 3, 2009 for your memorandum report date???? WHAT THE FUCK!?
Wala ba kayong kalendaryo sa lamesa nyo? AT KUNG MERON MAN TINITIGNAN NYO PA BA? O GANUN DIN LANG NG GANUN ANG MGA ARAW NYO? ARAW NG KATANGAHAN AT KAKURAPAN???
ABA, NAGTA TIME SPACE WARP BA KAYO?
PUTANGINA HINDI KAYO SI SHAIDER!!!
PULIS PANGKALAWAKAN YUN KAYO PULIS KYUSI LANG!!!!
BUMALIK KAYO SA TAMANG PANAHON.
MAHIRAP YANG NAWAWALANG GANYAN, BAKA MASUNOD NA KAYONG IPASOK SA MENTAL HOME CARE!
SANA SA NEWMAN HOME CARE DIN KAYO MABAGSAK DAHIL DUN KAYO BAGAY!
Then they fucked up my sister’s name again.
This time, her middle name was MC DONALD.
What the FUCK IS THIS?
Nag cocover up na lang ginagawa pang circus!!! (Is it not enough you are covering up that you have to make it a circus?)
Are you going through with your job as if it is a tedious and boring part of your existence?
BAHALA NA? SHOOT BEFORE ASKING NA NGA KAYO PATI BA NAMAN SA MGA PAPERWORKS TYPE BEFORE ASKING PA RIN? (Let it be? You already follow the shoot before asking policy, is it even “type” before asking policy with regards to official paperworks?)
Honestly, I don’t know the name of the PNP chief now. Because I don’t give much care of this people anymore.
PALITAN MAN NG PALITAN ANG PINUNO WALA PA RING PAGBABAGO (No matter how many times they change the head, the system is still the same.)
But whoever you are sir, whoever you are now taking over the helm of the PNP. I ask you this.
PWEDE PO BANG PAKIBALIK NG GRADE ONE TONG PULIS NA TO? (Can you bring this policeman back to grade one)
SADYA PO BA SYANG TANGA O NAGTATANGA TANGAHAN? (Is he plainly stupid or just playing so)
BAKIT DI NYO BINAGO ANG PANGALAN NG KAPATID KO DUN? GANUN NA BA KAKURAP ANG MGA PINUNO NYONG NATURINGAN AT PATI PAMBILI NG PAPEL BINULSA NA O TINATAMAD KA LANG MAGTIPA ULI? O SADYA KA LANG TANGA? (WHY DIDN’T YOU JUST CHANGE THE PAPERWORKS? IS YOUR BRASS SO CORRUPT THAT EVEN BUDGET FOR STATIONERY IS POCKETED? OR ARE YOUR FINGERS JUST SO LAZY TO TAP THE TYPEWRITER AGAIN? I REPEAT THE QUESTION, ARE SO JUST SO STUPID?)
O KAPARTE RIN PO BA SIYA SA COVER UP NA TO (Or is he a part of this cover up?)
KAYO ANG SUMISIRA SA IMAHE NG PNP, KAYO ANG MGA TARANTADONG WALANG ALAM NA NAGKA TSAPA LANG AT UNIPORME AT BARIL EH KALA NYO KAYO NA LAGI ANG TAMA. PERO SA ILALIM NG MATITIGAS NYONG BUNGO, UTAK NYO SINGLAKI NG MANI (YOU ARE THE ONES DETROYING THE IMAGE OF THE PNP, YOU THINK YOU ARE ALWAYS RIGHT JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVE THE BADGE, UNIFORM AND GUNS. DEEP INSIDE YOUR THICK SKULLS ARE BRAINS THE SIZE OF PEANUTS).
“INVESTIGATE”- DO YOU EVEN KNOW THE MEANING OF THE WORD?
WHY THE FUCK DIDN’T YOU GET THE DETAILS RIGHT????
This is not a small mistake.
It is made worse by the fact that it is committed by the POLICE…
Weren’t you taught “information gathering basics” when you were at school?
Or is this mistake just peculiar to my sister’s case????
Did somebody pay you so as to fuck up the paperworks? So that the battery of lawyers being prepped by the “enemy” could find technicality in this?
Then you are wrong.
It is you who will stink. If you are covering this up, you are following the BULLSHIT WAY.
This is ass wipe paper, an evidence of POLICE INCOMPETENCE…..
QUEZON CITY POLICE INCOMPETENCE FOR THAT MATTER!
When Manuel Quezon said he'd rather see the Philippines run like hell by Filipinos than run like heaven by the Americans, he was saying so rhetorically. To hammer a point. To strengthen the words of his conviction. Not for you to literally follow it till now, just because the city is named after that great man.
AGAIN I ASK YOU, DON’T YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT INFORMATION GATHERING MEANS???
It is the basics of investigation. It should give a brilliant meaning to the word ACCURATE!
DID YOU EVEN REACH HIGH SCHOOL? WHY THE FUCK THIS?
But I will give credit though, YOU GOT THE NAME OF THE PLACE OF INCIDENT RIGHT.
NEWMAN HOME CARE AND REHABILITATION,
But I hope the address is right.
NO 37 WEST FAIRLANE, WEST FAIRVIEW, QUEZON CITY
This is the correct place. Not the one stated on the death certificate:
HUMAN CARE HOME MY ASS!!!!
Now let us have a look at the FACTS OF THE CASE. Or more aptly FUCK UPS OF THE CASE!!!
It is written there:
Cursory examination showed that the victim sustained ligature mark around her neck and a lacerated wound on her head. Cadaver of the victim was brought to PNP Crime Laboratory Service for examination.
“CURSORY” EXAMINATION O “PAID FULLY” EXAMINATION?
LIGATURE MARK MY SEETHING ASS!!!
Read on you bastard, you manipulator, YOU FOOL.
MAGBASA KA LANG KUNG SINO KA MANG ULOL NA NASA LIKOD NITO (Read on whoever you are behind this.)
Read on and hear the tale of the final paper.
Hear the tale of the Medico legal
This is the paper when the forensic doctor studied the corpse.
It MUST BE impartial and true.
It must state there all the injuries and marking sustained on a body.
In this case MY SISTER’S BODY.
It must HONESTLY AND TRUTHFULLY state THE TRUE CAUSE OF DEATH.
It must be conducted by a doctor of unwavering dignity, of solid professionalism, of untainted record.
He must be true to his oath.
He must not be influenced nor coerced to leave many information unwritten, unreported, unvalidated.
He must hear the voice of the dead.
The spirit has passed away, but the corporeal vessel remains.
The body “speaks” from beyond the grave.
He MUST HEAR WHAT IT SAYS WELL.
MAMERTO BERNABE hereunder are your findings:
1. Lacerated wound in the forehead, measuring 2x0.3 cm, along the anterior midline
2. Abrasion, wound in the right lower jaw (mandibular area) measuring 3x1 cm, 3.5 cm right of the anterior midline.
3. Ligature mark, around the neck, two loops, measuring 66 cm long, 0.2 cm. wide, with extreme ends forming an inverted “V” at the nape, the apex of which was 4 cm right of the posterior midline.
INTERNAL AND FINDING:
- Contused and congested trachea
- Congested brain
- Congested lungs
The rest of the organs are unremarkable.
Stomach was empty.
You wrote the cause of death as : Asphyxia by Ligature
My father and stepmother received the final report ten days after the incident.
Thursday, AUGUST 13 2009.
They received it the same day the NATIONAL BUREAU OF INVESTIGATION was conducting a re-autopsy.
Here in the area of Subic-Olongapo, where my sister came from.
In a funeral home more reliable than San Rafael, San Rafael who hid my sister’s body all the time my mother and family are grieving.
Where Rocelle Cruz authorized the autopsy herself, as she herself related in a conversation with us the night of 08 August 2009.
Where ROCELLE CRUZ assured us that ALL BRUISES SHE SUSTAINED will be recorded by the one who conducted the AUTOPSY.
This was what ROCELLE CRUZ, in her power suit, in her businesslike mien and confident carriage, in her unwavering voice told us:
PALIWANAG KO LANG PO SIR!
(I'll just explain it to you sir!)
BINIYAK PO YAN!
(That corpse was opened up)
LAHAT PO BINIYAK!
(Everything was opened up)
Pero hapon na?(but its already afternoon?)- my uncle asked this.
AYAW PO NAMING IPAKITA SA INYO NG LABAS LABAS ANG BITUKA NG BATA.
(We don't want to show you the innards of the body)
PERO LAHAT PO NG PASA NA YAN,
(BUT ALL OF THOSE BRUISES)
NA TINIGNAN PO NG DOCTOR, LAHAT PO YAN NAKALAGAY SA AUTOPSY REPORT.
(THAT THE DOCTOR SAW, EVERYTHING WAS RECORDED IN THE AUTOPSY REPORT)
LAHAT NG PASA NYAN, NANGYARI YAN, KASI DI PO NAMAN NAMIN TINITIGNAN ANG PATAY (static…) MAYARI,
(EVERY BRUISE THAT WAS IN THE BODY HAPPENED, BUT WE DON'T LOOK AT WHAT HAPPENED TO THE BODY...(static) OWNER)
ANG TITINGIN LANG PO DYAN YUNG SOCO.
(THE ONLY ONE'S WHO WILL LOOK AT THE BODY ARE THE SOCO)
NAKAUSAP KO PO SI DOC, ANO NA YUNG NANGYARI SA KASO NATIN YUNG NAGHANG?
(I TALKED TO THE DOCTOR, WHAT HAPPENED TO OUR CASE, THE ONE THAT HANGED HERSELF?)
SABI NYA, “ROCELLE PARANG MAY FOUL PLAY EH”
(HE TOLD ME "ROCELLE IT LOOKS LIKE FOUL PLAY")
SABI KO PANONG MAY FOUL PLAY
(I ASKED, WHY FOUL PLAY?)
PERO ACCORDING TO SOCO SA AMIN MERONG FOULPLAY
(PERO ACCORDING TO WHAT SOCO TOLD US, THERE WAS FOULPLAY)
KASI YUNG MGA KAMAY PO NYA, ….inane…. YUNG MGA PASA NYA SA KATAWAN NANGYARI PO IYON BAGO SYA NAMATAY
(BECAUSE HER HANDS.... THE BRUISES ON HER BODY HAPPENED BEFORE SHE DIED)
BAGO PO SYA NAMATAY NANGYARI YUNG MGA PASANG YAN
(THE BRUISES HAPPENED BEFORE SHE DIED)
IBIG PONG SABIHIN NYAN BAGO SYA NAMATAY MAY “MOVEMENT” NA NAGAWA PO
NGAYON SABI KO, NAGPUNTA NA PO BA ANG RELATIVE?
(THAT MEANS THERE WAS "MOVEMENT" BEFORE SHE DIED, AND THEN I ASKED, DID THE RELATIVES ALREADY CAME?)
DI PA SILA NAGPUPUNTA PERO PAPUNTAHIN MO SA OPISINA PARA MA EXPLAIN KO YUNG MGA NAKITA SA BATA…
(I HAVEN'T SEEN THEM YET BUT TELL THEM TO GO TO MY OFFICE AND I WILL EXPLAIN WHAT I SAW ON THE CHILD...)
AT NGAYON NA NAKAPAGSALITA NA PO SILA SA AKIN, KAHIT IHARAP NYO NA PO AKO SA KANILA, NA SINABI NILANG MAY FOUL PLAY DAHIL YUNG PASA AT MAY TAMA NGA DAW PO SA NOO, AY IBIG SABIHIN MAY “MOVEMENT” BAGO NAMATAY.
(AND NOW THAT THEY TALKED TO ME ALREADY ABOUT THAT, I CAN TELL IT UPFRONT THAT THEY SAID THERE WAS FOUL PLAY WITH THE BRUISES AND THE LACERATION ON THE FOREHEAD, WHICH MEANS THERE WAS MOVEMENT BEFORE SHE DIED)
And then Rocelle proceeded telling us a VERY INTERESTING story.
She told us her brother was also a victim of neglect in that home care and rehab center.
Her brother was also admitted one time to that center
She told us of her gay brother who was also admitted to that place.
That her brother MANAGED TO DRINK A WHOLE BOTTLE OF LOTION.
Because nobody was watching.
But her brother survived.
MY MOTHER ASKED YOU ROCHELLE, THAT IF THIS PROCEEDS FURTHER, WOULD YOU BE WILLING TO TESTIFY FOR US.
YOU LOOKED HER IN THE EYES.
WITH A READY ANSWER YOU SAID YES.
ROCELLE CRUZ HEAR THIS:
THE BRUISES ARE NOT IN THE AUTOPSY.
WHY THIS INJUSTICE.
YOU ARE ALSO A MOTHER ROCELLE.
BE THERE WHEN WE CALL YOU.
TELL THEM WHAT YOU TOLD DISTRAUGHT AND WEARY HEARTS THAT NIGHT YOU BRAVELY WENT TO
MY SISTER’S WAKE.
THE NBI WAS ALREADY FINISHED WITH THE REAUTOPSY WHEN WE HAD THE ONE CONDUCTED BY THE QUEZON CITY POLICE.
AND THEY HAVE A COPY OF THAT NOW.
AND THE DOCTOR WASN’T SO HAPPY OF THE FIRST ONE.
THEY BID ME WAIT NOW.
THE WEEK AFTER NEXT WEEK HE SAYS, WE WILL HAVE OUR COPY.
SO THIS BLOG WILL LURK HERE AS A DRAFT.
IT WAS THE FAITHFUL DAY OF 13 AUGUST 2009.
THIS IS THE BEGINNING OF THEIR END.
FOR I KNOW THAT THE NATIONAL BUREAU OF INVESTIGATION WILL SEE THIS PROFESSIONALY.
THEIR INTEGRITY IS UNQUESTIONABLE.
THIS I WOULD LIKE TO BELIEVE.
SO I AM FOLLOWING THEM.
I AM BIDDING MY TIME.
SO BY THE TIME THAT YOU ARE READING THIS NOW, WE ALREADY HAVE THAT COPY.
AND ALL THOSE TIME IN WAITING, I WAS PRAYING.
THAT IT WILL BE FAIR.
IT WILL BE ACCURATE.
I AM ASKING ST CORY AND ST JOAN TO INTERCEDE.
FOR DEMOCRACY TO TRIUMPH, FOR GALLANT SOLDIERY TO PREVAIL.
AND IT WILL BE SO.
I TELL YOU THAT.
AND WHEN IT COMES OUT, IT WILL BE ALL OUT WAR.
FROM THE STREETS TO THE COURTS, THERE WE WILL BE.
WE WILL PURSUE THIS TO ITS BITTER END.
“LET JUSTICE BE DONE THOUGH HEAVEN MAY FALL”- SOMEBODY SAID THIS A LONG TIME AGO.
ROCELLE, YOU WHO HID MY SISTER’S BODY, KNOW THIS TOO.
I HAVE A COPY OF THAT CONVERSATION.
IN MY CELLPHONE. IN COMPUTERS HERE AND THERE. THREE DISKS. 2 USBs. WAITING TO BE UNLEASHED.
IT IS PLAYABLE BY “QUICKTIME.”
I CAN’T DOWNLOAD IT YET.
I AM STILL LOOKING FOR A PROGRAM TO CONVERT IT.
BUT WE DON’T NEED THAT DON’T WE ROCELLE?
YOU WILL BE TRUE TO YOUR WORD RIGHT?
AS FOR THE REST:
Michael Oruta and Colleague
PCI Elizaldo Odi
SPOI Demosthenes Rebancos
P/Supt. Gerardo Bulosan Ratuita
Dr. Jay Madelon Carcereny
And all other persons involved in this case.
All of you will have your day in court.
YOU WILL BE ASKED TO SWEAR BY THE BIBLE TO SPEAK THE TRUTH AND NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH.
YOU WILL BE SWEARING THIS IN FRONT OF A JUDGE, REPRESENTATIVE OF THE JUDICIARY SYSTEM OF A DEMOCRACY.
THEY WILL ASK YOU WHAT SCHOOL YOU CAME FROM?
THEY WILL KNOW IF YOU HAVE FORSAKEN YOUR OATHS NOW, HIPPOCRATIC OR OF NOBLE SERVITUDE .
YOUR FAMILY WILL KNOW!
YOUR FORMER CLASSMATES.
THEY WILL KNOW IF YOU WILL BE FALSE.
THEY WILL KNOW IF YOU WILL FOLLOW THE WAYS OF THE WICKED.
DEMOSTHENES, THAT IS A GREEK NAME (THE GREEKS, FOUNDER OF “DEMOCRACY”-JUST IN CASE YOU DON’T KNOW). WHAT DID YOU TELL MY AUNTIE? YOU’RE BOUND FOR THE U.S. IN TWO WEEKS IS THAT IT?
I DON’T THINK SO.
YOU WILL BE THERE WHEN THE SHIT HITS THE FAN AND SPLATTERS IN YOUR FACE.
YOU WILL BE THERE TO EITHER EAT THAT SHIT OR WIPE IT AWAY WITH TRUTH AND YOUR PERSONAL QUEST FOR REDEMPTION.
I AM WAITING.
AND BIDDING MY TIME.
IT WILL BE SOON.
SOME OF YOU MAY BE ACADEMY BORN TOO.
I AM TOO.
I KNOW THE MEANING OF BROTHERHOOD.
I KNOW THE FIRST THINGS A CADET IS SUPPOSED TO KNOW:
A CADET SHALL NOT LIE, CHEAT NOR STEAL.
THESE THREE THINGS IS THE EMBODIMENT OF EVERYTHING.
EVERYTHING THAT MAKES OFFICERS AND GENTLEMEN OUT OF SNOTTY, PATHETIC BOYS.
I HAVE BEEN A MAN SEPARATED FROM THE BOYS.
KNOW YOUR ENEMY.
I ALSO ASK YOUR BROTHERS TO LEAVE YOU NOW. FOR DOING SO WILL DISTORT THE CONCEPT OF BROTHERHOOD YOUR ALMA MATER ESPOUSED.
YOU WERE NOT TAUGHT TO STAND BY A FELLOW CADET TO KILL RIGHT?
TO STAND BY HIM AS HE HELP COVER UP THE KILLING OF INNOCENTS RIGHT?
FOR COVERING UP A MURDER IS ALSO KILLING ITSELF.
BE GOOD GERMANS.
DISOBEY UNLAWFUL AND THE FOULEST OF ORDERS.
YOU THOUGHT NO ONE IN THAT FAMILY IS SMART ENOUGH TO TAKE ON YOU RIGHT?
I AM HERE!
WHEN YOU SEND YOUR FOUL HOUNDS KNOW THIS TOO, I KNOW THE DRILL.
I’VE BEEN THERE.
I’VE DONE THAT.
TELL THEM TO DO IT FROM A DISTANCE.
THEY ONLY HAVE ONE SHOT.
TELL THEM NOT TO GO NEAR ARMS LENGTH, OR I SWEAR TO GOD I’LL USE THESE BARE HANDS TO RIP THEIR THROATS APART.
THIS I SWEAR.
MAKE SURE I AM TRULY ALONE.
MAKE SURE NO ONE IS AROUND.
OR THE SHIT THAT WILL HIT THE FAN WILL BURY YOU WHOLE.
There is still a fourth paper.
THE CERTIFICATE OF ADMISSION.
VINCENT GONZALES WHERE ARE YOU????
HOW COULD THEY MAKE YOU AN ADMINISTRATOR OF THAT PLACE?
WHY NOT SPARE EVEN A SINGLE WORD:
ARE YOU SO HEARTLESS AS TO BE MANIPULATED TO DO THIS?
OR DID YOU HAVE A DIRECT HAND?
FOR MONEY OF COURSE.
SOON WE WILL COME KNOCKING UPON YOUR DOOR.
YOU WILL SEE A BARRIO AND A CITY IN IT’S TOGETHERNESS.
YOU WILL SEE FRIENDS AND FAMILY UNITED FOR A CAUSE.
YOU WILL SEE HOW LOVED MY SISTER WAS.
YOU WILL SEE PMMA’ER BROTHERHOOD.
YOU WILL SEE HOW GOOD PEOPLE WILL STAND SO THAT EVIL WILL NOT PREVAIL.
YOU WILL KNOW AND HEAR AGAIN OF GABRIELA, PROTECTOR OF FILIPINO WOMEN.
YOU WILL SEE WHAT IT MEANS TO HAVE BEEN IN TWO HIGHSCHOOLS, ONE A WITH A PROUD CATHOLIC BACKGROUND THE OTHER ABOVE THE REST IN SCIENTIFIC STUDIES. I HAD INTELLIGENT CLASSMATES. MANY OF THEM ARE FAMILIAR WITH THE LAWS OF THIS LAND. I CAN TURN TO MANY FOR ADVISE. I HAVE MANY WHO SYMPATHIZES.
YOU WILL SEE THE FURY OF A FAMILY TOGETHER IN GRIEF.
YOU WILL SEE BLOGGERS OF THE TYPE OF BRIAN AND LOI, RALLYING TO A CAUSE. YOU WILL HEAR OF THE POWER OF THE BLOGOSPHERE, THE MIGHT OF THE NETIZENS.
YOU WILL SEE THE FOURTH ESTATE, DEMOCRACY AND FREE SPEECH AND RIGHT TO INFORMATION IN PLAY.
DOES THE OWNERS OF THAT INSTITUTION ALREADY KNOW WHAT HAPPENED?
OR ARE THEY PARTY TO THIS COVER UP AND WHITE WASH TOO?
I'VE HEARD THEY BELONG TO THE MARANATHA CHRISTIAN FAITH.
DO THEIR BROTHERS AND SISTERS IN THAT CHRISTIAN FELLOWSHIP KNOW?
I DON’T KNOW THE NBI PEOPLE I APPROACHED.
BUT THEY HEARD ME.
I ASKED FOR HELP IN WHAT I FEEL IS AN INJUSTICE.
AND THEY ANSWERED.
THEY GAVE ME THEIR TIME.
AT FIRST IN DOUBT, TELLING ME EVEN IN CONDESCENDING MANNER THAT “OK GEORGE BUT WHATEVER IS THE RESULT YOU MUST ACCEPT HA?”
THINKING THAT MAYBE MY SISTER REALLY DID KILL HERSELF.
BUT AFTER THEY WERE THROUGH IN LOOKING AND CUTTING UP MY SISTER AGAIN.
THEY FELT SORRY FOR ME.
THEY FELT SORRY FOR DOUBTING.
THEY ARE PROFESSIONAL, YES I CAN GIVE THEM THAT, BUT THEY ARE ONLY HUMAN.
THEY ALSO HAVE CONSCIENCE.
AND THEY CANNOT HIDE WHAT THEY FEEL FROM THE WINDOWS OF THEIR SOULS.
THIS I HEARD FROM THEIR LANGUAGE. NOT THE VOCAL ONES.
THE LANGUAGE OF THE BODY.
THE LANGUAGE OF A SYMPHATIZING HEART.
I LAUD THEM THIS.
AND THEY WILL BE TRUE.
AND I WILL BE ON MY KNEES BEGGING THEM TO FORGIVE ME.
FOR RESORTING TO THIS.
HOPING AGAINST HOPE THEY WILL NOT BE INTIMIDATED BY THE MEDIA.
BY MY RALLYING PEOPLE TO KNOW OF THIS.
TO HEAR OF THIS.
TO LET IT ALL OUT.
BUT GIVE ME THE CREDIT SIR.
BECAUSE I WAITED SO.
AND I KNOW IN MY HEART THAT I CAN HELP YOU BETTER THIS WAY.
BY LETTING PEOPLE KNOW.
SO THAT THEY WILL BE AWARE.
I AM DOING THIS SO THAT I MAY EXPOSE WHAT ILLS OUR SOCIETY.
SO THAT PEOPLE WILL KNOW HOW WANTON THE DISREGARD FOR LIFE IN THIS NATION.
I AM WRITING THIS BECAUSE I BELONG TO THE RANKS OF OFWs. THEY ARE CALLING US HEROES FOR RISKING LIFE AND LIMB AWAY FROM THE COUNTRY SO THAT OUR FAMILY MAY LIVE WELL AND FREE.
I AM WRITING THIS BECAUSE I HELP PAY THE SALARIES OF THE SUPPOSEDLY PROTECTORS OF THE LAW, BUT WHAT ARE THEY DOING? WHY ARE THEY ALLOWING THEMSELVES TO BE USED BY THE POWERFUL FEW? WHY ARE THEY FORSAKING THEIR OATH TO PROTECT AND TO SERVE?
I AM ALSO ONE OF THOSE WHO IN THE STRONGEST TERM ABHORR AND ACCUSE THIS REGIME OF ALLOWING CRIME TO PERPETUATE, TO SERVE THE EVIL WHIMS OF MONSTERS OF THE SOCIETY.
I WORKED HARD TO BE WHERE I AM NOW. I ENDURED THE RIGID AND SPARTAN WAY OF LIFE OF A GOVERNMENT SCHOOL SO THAT I MIGHT HELP MY FAMILY.
I AM WRITING THIS BECAUSE THIS IS MY GOD GIVEN GIFT, SOMEWHERE FROM MY PROUD GENEAOLOGY IS A BARD, AND HE PASSED ON THE TORCH TO ME. I AM USING THIS GOD GIVEN TALENT FROM NOW ON, TO BARE YOUR ASSES AND RIP IT APART YOU EVIL BASTARDS…. I HAVE NOTHING AFTER ALL. NO POWER. I AM NOT OF THE RICH NOR FAMOUS. I AM BUT A COMMON MAN. BUT I HAVE DIGNITY.
I AM WRITING THIS SO THAT MY LOVED ONES, MY CHILDREN WILL KNOW THEIR FATHER WELL, EVEN IF I AM PREMATURELY DONE FOR. THEY WILL BE UPRIGHT AND LAW ABIDING. THEY WILL BE GOOD. THEY WILL BE FIRM IN THEIR BELIEFS. THEY WILL STAND UP FOR THE CAUSE OF THE JUST.
PINAGHIHIRAPAN KO ANG PINAPAKAIN KO SA PAMILYA DI KATULAD NYONG MGA HAYUP KAYO MINSAN NAGKAKAUTANG UTANG NA AKO PARA LANG MAY MAIBIGAY SA KANILA(I WORKED HARD IN SUPPORTING MY FAMILY, NOT LIKE YOU ANIMALS SOMETIMES I GET BURIED IN DEBT JUST TO MAKE THEIR ENDS MEET!!!)
I ALSO WORKED HARD SO THAT OUR LEADERS CAN HAVE EXPENSIVE MEALS AT LE CIRCUE, ENGORGING THEIR GREEDY SELVES AT THE EXPENSE OF THE PEOPLE’S MONEY. HARD EARNED TAXES PAID BY THE WORK OF MANY SINEWY SHOULDERS, THE SACRIFICES AND TOILS OF THOSE WHO WORKS AFAR WHO HELP KEEP THIS ECONOMY AFLOAT.
I AM ALSO FOR BELIEVING THERE IS YET HOPE.
I AM WRITING THIS TO IN A SMALL WAY HELP HASTEN THEIR CLOCK’S TICKING, THOSE WHO ARE ABUSIVE OF AUTHORITY. TOGETHER WITH THIS REGIME, WHO HAS SHOWN MORE CORRUPTNESS AND LAWLESSNESS THAN ANY ADMINISTRATION BEFORE. WHO KILLED A LOT OF JOURNALISTS. WHOSE TIME A RISE OF UNLAWFUL DETENTION AND DOWNRIGHT DISAPPEARANCE ROSE….
YOUR TIME IS TICKING. LIKE SODDOM AND GOMORRAH, YOUR WICKED WAYS WILL SOON BE OVER.
I AM DOING THIS TO EXPOSE FURTHER THE CORRUPT AND EVIL IN THE POLICE SYSTEM, THEY WILL ALSO TUMBLE AND FALL. THOSE THAT WILL REMAIN WILL BE THE HONEST ONES, THOSE WITH INTEGRITY AND RESPECT, THOSE WHO KNOWS PROFESSIONALISM AND DUTY, THOSE WHO CANNOT BE PAID TO COVER UP, TO WHITE WASH… THERE ARE MANY MEN IN UNIFORM WHO ARE SO. AND THEY WILL LAUD WHAT I AM DOING, FOR THEY TOO ARE SICK AND TIRED OF WORKING WITH THE LIKES OF YOU!!!
PUTANGINA NYONG LAHAT NA KURAP AT MASASAMA SA KAPULISAN, BAKIT PATULOY NYONG INAAPAKAN ANG MABABABANG TAO?…. (ALL YOU CORRUPT POLICEMEN, YOU SON-OF-A-BITCHES, WHY DO YOU CONTINUE ON TRAMPLING THE SMALL AND WEAK?)
I AM WRITING THIS BECAUSE I AM EMBOLDENED BY THAT ONE GREAT MAN IN PHILIPPINE JOURNALISM, CONRADO dE QUIROS WHO SAID: THE ACT OF WRITING INVOLVES MAKING REALITY REAL.
"What the writer does specifically, an act of awesome reverberations, is to articulate. It is to put reality into words. It is to make reality real.- Conrado de Quiros, WRITER KA LANG PALA.
I AM WRITING THIS TO MAKE MY SISTER'S LIFE REAL. TO MAKE THE INJUSTICE DONE TO HER REAL. TO SHATTER THE WALL WHICH HIDES FROM US THE TRUTH OF THIS.
TO BE A GOOD MAN AND DO SOMETHING LEAST EVIL TRIUMPH, AND IN SO DOING LIGHT A CANDLE IN THIS GOD-FORSAKEN DARKNESS.
I AM ALSO WRITING THIS BECAUSE:
FORGIVE ME SIR, MEN OF THE NBI, FOR ABOVE ALL THESE REASONS THERE IS ONE SHINING SO BRIGHT, PROPELLING ME ONWARDS THAT NOTHING THAT EVER COME ON MY WAY WILL WEAKEN MY RESOLVE.
I AM SISTER’S BROTHER… I AM HER CHAMPION… I AM HER KNIGHT!!!
I LOVED HER SO IN LIFE, I WILL LOVE HER SO IN DEATH… AND I WILL DO WHATEVER IT TAKES SO THAT I MIGHT HELP BRING HER JUSTICE. AND TO GO FURTHER, TO HELP OTHERS TOO. SO THAT WHEN PEOPLE TELL ME THEIR STORIES, I MAY HELP THEM TOO.....
INOSENTE YUN…. WALANG INAPAKANG TAO… GUSTO LANG NYANG GUMALING.. PERO PINATAY NYO…. IPAGPAPATULOY KO SA BLOG NA TO ANG BUHAY NYA… PANANATILIHIN KONG BUHAY ANG KANYANG ALAALA MATAPOS MANG MAHATULAN NA KAYO SA KRIMENG ITO.
(SHE WAS AN INNOCENT SOUL… DID NOT STEP ON ANYONE.. SHE ONLY WANTED TO BE WELL.. BUT YOU KILLED HER…. I WILL KEEP HER MEMORY ALIVE IN THIS BLOG, LONG AFTER YOU SUFFER THE PUNISHMENT YOU RICHLY DESERVE)
COME AND GET ME! I’M WAITING….
Just because you're paranoid doesn't mean they aren't after you- KURT COBAIN